When I was say.... 6 or 7 and on, I just wanted to be done with school. It wasn't my stronghold, I didn't have a lot of friends, and I struggled in some of my classes. As I look back over the years it's amazing what I have learned, the friends I've had, and no longer speak to. It reminds me of the verse in Ecclesiastes. "Life is but a vapor." That doesn't mean that it is empty and pointless, but it is very short.
As I look on to my final semester ever of high school, I realize that it's almost over, I have to become an adult. I don't think it is possible to understand the bittersweet feeling until this moment. Last year when a few people I knew were graduating they were saying how it's such a weird feeling. I kind of understood, because I was going into my last year after summer. But I'm beginning to see what they meant.
I need to start becoming and adult, understanding life, understanding other people, so I can be prepared for graduating. After I graduate, that's it. I have to know what I'm aiming at. My ultimate goal as to be growing in Christlikeness, but I need to know what else I'm getting myself into. I'm planning on going to college, I want to get married, and have children some day. I'm at the time that all this is coming. I dreamed about it my whole life, and it's right in front of me.
Such a bittersweet feeling.
-Emily
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